As I’ve mentioned before, I have sold my house and in less than two weeks I am moving back in with my parents. It was that or pay exorbitant rent for a local place for a monthish. While it beats wasting money on an expensive rental, it’s kind of awkward for me, as I’m sure it would be for anyone at this age.
The last time I lived with my folks was around 1993. Yep almost 30 years ago. I think that’s why it’s knocking me off kilter a bit. When you are used to your own space (especially since you’ve been living alone for 2+ years), it’s a hard to move into someone else’s home and feel comfortable. I also notoriously do not like putting people out (truthfully, I’m not really good at asking for favors/help either for the same reason).
It’s just that I’m the person that stays at hotels when visiting out of town so that I don’t inconvenience my hosts and I don’t feel the need to consult their plans while making mine. Living with my parents amplifies the feeling that I’m back in high school, needing permission to go anywhere or do anything. I know that’s not how they see it and the rational part of my brain realizes it’s my issue, not theirs (the “it’s me not you” conundrum 😁😁😁), but my anxiety likes to try to convince me otherwise.
Couple those insecurities with trying to plan for what I might need to pack separate from what the movers are storing is just stressing my last nerve. Not being able to move into my new home from my old home sucks. And Murphy’s Law is bound to poke it’s head out during this process. Don’t forget, we’re still under the shadow of 2020 😳.
And the reality that my time in a home I lovingly built is coming to an end is very bittersweet for me.
However, in a glass half full vein, there are some advantages – I will be closer to my youngest nephew for a short while, so spending time with him will be great. Also, I will have REAL INTERNET – WOO HOO! When you’re at the mercy of mobile hotspots that drop to KB speed when you’ve used up you 15 gigs of high-speed data you long for unlimited streaming.
And it is a new year! I will soon be in a new space with a fresh energy and a chance to continue building the new me. That’s worth focusing my attention on.
What positive changes will you focus on this year?
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