Seismic Shift

Some people may call it a weight lifted off them, a door closing/window opening situation or even dark clouds clearing. In my case, I felt a seismic shift in the energy that surrounded me – like the dark smut on my aura has been stripped away.

For three years, I had been holding on to a small part of responsibility regarding the divorce. Beating myself up trying to figure out what I had done to cause it. But the knowledge that my ex was having a child with the woman who was a played a part in the dissolution of our marriage finally freed me of that notion. And that is when the shift occurred. I could finally let go of that small part of guilt that I somehow caused the divorce. 

I have felt so unburdened since last week’s discovery that I have been singing and humming and generally feeling better about life. Now I’m not going to pretend the anger isn’t still there – I would be lying if I said that. But it’s a lot more manageable and if/when the day comes that we run into each other again (his mother still lives in my small city), I’m know it will be a better encounter than it would have been a year ago because of this shift.

So today I recognize and acknowledge that seismic shift. I also celebrate it because I can move forward with a lighter heart. 

Note: When you have your moment of clarity that unburdens you, whether it be a shift, a weight or however you define it, I encourage you celebrate as well, and I will be here to celebrate with you 💜