Well, I had a day yesterday and it wasn’t good. I had every intention of posting, even ruminated on possible topics while cooling off under the fan post shower (it’s been 100% humidity for the last week or so and trying to stay dry long enough after a shower to get dressed is challenging at times). And then I dozed off while ruminating 😆. Unfortunately, a dark cloud decided to descend on me during my nap and I could not shake it off all day.
You see, I had gotten cocky lately. I hadn’t had an anxiety attack since the last one that I documented here and had been feeling really balanced emotionally, thinking that maybe I has finally overcome the worst of my anxiety. Then I got that notion smacked right out of my head yesterday 🤦♀️. And even though I didn’t have a full-blown panic attack, it sat below the surface all day and well into the evening hours making it difficult for me to concentrate on writing, hence, no post.
So, instead of allowing the anxiety to overwhelm me so early in the day, I decided to try to change the energy surrounding me by getting out of the house. I started with lunch at a local restaurant, and I brought my latest read with me, something I haven’t done in a long while. After lunch I decided to check out a bike shop to see if I could find a bike so that I can finally start riding for exercise (remember – Youthful Body Journey 😁). But the best of intentions was thwarted when the shop owner gave me the bad news – what he had in stock (which was about 10-15 adult bikes) was all he had 😮. However, he was kind enough to show me a new brand that he is will be stocking as soon as it’s available. I really like the style, so I left my number so he can contact me as soon as they come in, so yeah me – sort of 🤪!
After that stop I thought I would try a little retail therapy, but that too was a bust – definitely not my day. I headed home with the cloud of doom still hanging around. I think an actual attack would have been better, but I was really trying to stave it off for a change. And while I’m pretty sure I know what the underlying issue for the stress was, I’m not quite ready to talk about it just yet (still trying to shake off the gloom – but doing much better today 😊). I will try to explain by weeks end because I think (hope) it will resonate with you.
Since I like to leave things on a good note, I will leave you with these three nuggets: 1. Due to my vaccine shot, I feel like I can make real plans to travel soon! 2. I actually went back into a movie theater this week to see Cruella Deville – good movie, but worth watching for the little dog Wink, who I now want 😍😍😍 and 3. If you are looking for something different to watch, might I suggest Extreme Sisters on TLC (yes dammit, they sucked me in again 🤣🤣). If you ever wanted to know what co-dependency looks like… Again, it’s like a wreck you can’t look away from.
And if all goes according to plan, I can add the final installment to the Cursed Property storyline tomorrow. Until then, I am saging the crap out of my house and myself 😁.
Note: I love my wildlife 🥰🥰🥰. And yes I need a better phone camera 😁
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