Anxiety – The Guest That Never Leaves

I realized that my anxiety and the 🐜s have one thing in common. The mere thought of either summons them for a visit 🤬.

Over the weekend, I was relishing the fact that it had been quite a while since I had an anxiety attack. I was also relieved since I hadn’t had the chance to replace my CBD stock. And then Wednesday night falls and I have one of the worst attacks in forever. Like heart racing, with a side of overwhelming sense of doom, late Wednesday night. I couldn’t fall asleep because it was fairly intense, even after I was able to get it under control. So there I sit, flipping between channels waiting for the melatonin to kick in so that I can get some 💤💤💤.  I wasn’t even going to try to write yesterday because the post attack stress was still with me.

However, I found some relief from two independent sources yesterday. First – I was able to close out the loan I made to the owners of my old property. Picked up the check and signed off on the paperwork and I am free of that hell 🥂! Next – I popped over to my favorite CBD shop where the lovely young lady who works there had her new little puppy there and I was bombarded with unconditional love and joy from little Cookie, a dachshund mix. Puppies, like babies, have the bestest smell. And her joyful energy was contagious 🥰🥰. I spent the better part of an hour or so just chatting with the young lady and playing with the dog. Best fix ever! Now before you think I am being disloyal to my dog, she is ten and her energy is very different than that of a six month old puppy. A girls gotta take the unbridled affection where she can get it 🤷🏼‍♀️😁.

All of this is to say that anxiety is no joke and when it becomes debilitating, you have to look for ways to move through it. It’s two days later and even though I’m a lot better, there is a lurking sensation that it might not be over yet. By acknowledging the sensation, I am better prepared to handle the next episode, should it happen.

As for the 🐜’s, I found one crawling up the wall in my office yesterday (again on the second floor). I can’t even use an emoji without summoning those god forsaken demons 😡. It’s like the movie Candyman 😳😆.

So my lovelies, self-care is the word of the day, week, month. Do something good for yourself this weekend 😊.