Well, I had a 5-month run this time. One of the longest runs without a crisis I’ve had since I’ve been off my anti-depression meds, so I’ll take it as a win 🥂.
Apparently, I wasn’t just cranky on Monday. It was the beginning stages of a minor mental health crisis which I realized by Wednesday. And when that happens, I tend to let things (like blogging) fall off my plate in an effort to manage my anxiety/depressive episode. Thank the goddess I don’t make my living off of blogging right now 😬.
Ahh the challenges of depression/anxiety. Aside from the fact that it lies to you (and that dark voice was doing that a lot this week 😡), you also are never quite sure when the next episode might occur and how much energy you’ll need to manage it. So, self-care to the rescue. I forced myself to get out of the house a little by walking and riding bikes with my sweet little neighbors. I made sure to shower (although thankfully that was not really a big issue during my major depressive phase 😮💨). I also unpacked my books – WooHoo! But, sadly, it didn’t have the desired effect I was hoping for, yet (of course it could be that I realized I may need to cull some books from my collection 😒).
However, today the clouds have started to lift, and my mental equilibrium is almost balanced again, so I know I’ll be back in working order soon 😜.
This is just the reality I live with 🤷🏼♀️.
So, I hope that the next run will be longer and the episode shorter (although 3 days isn’t too bad 💜). And I will continue to remain honest about my mental health with all of you because “if it helps just one person…” (or helps you help one person) I will consider this blog a success 😊.
Love and warm hugs My Lovelies
Note: The Courtship not a recap will be up later today, so check back for my snarky take on the show😁.
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