Well, I guess it’s a good thing my blog is not designed as a money generator because trying to create content during a minor mental health crisis is challenging at best.
I had really hoped to get back on track post trip, but once the stress of travel was off my plate, a lot of negative thoughts that I had been shoving down decided to surface along with the grief over the death of my horse (and my dog really).
So, the last week and a half I had to spend my energy on managing my mental health and not getting mired down by the intrusive thoughts, some of which were triggered by my visit to Buffalo – the place I had met (specifically at college, which I visited) and married my ex. I think the very short trip I took down memory lane really brought up some unexpected emotions that kind of ganged up on me all at once upon my return.
Such is the life of a person who works every day to maintain control over their emotional health. Many times, there are no battles to be had, but when your mind turns on you it takes every resource you have to beat it back. And that’s what I have been doing since my last blog – recovering from the battle.
Thankfully, the darkness started to lift last Friday and I’m back on solid ground. I even had a platonic date with my good friend Robb on Saturday – dinner and a movie. The dinner was good, the movie not so much 🤷♀️(Halloween Ends for those who are wondering 😁). It’s nice to feel less anxiety and more confidence. It’s also a cue to always be mindful of my emotional status to better prepare for possible bad days ahead.
Anyway, this last week was a reminder that you while good days are aplenty, the dark ones are still lurking in the background. I will always have to be vigilant with my mental health.
As always, this is just another story on the challenges that people with mental health issues may face. So even if this is not something you’ve experienced – give those of us who do grace during a crisis, at least to the extent that it doesn’t harm you to do so 😊.
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