The Ladybug Onslaught of Halloween 2022 😱

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For the love of all that is holy – why are bugs attracted to my house?!? Particularly the inside of my house?!?

This year I’ve had an influx of weird flying black bugs, stink bugs and now the ladybugs are on the attack, at Halloween no less 😳😳.

Yesterday, my dear friend Robb and I had just finished a movie when I noticed a ladybug climbing near the ceiling. Then another and another until those flying creatures were EVERYWHERE on the back wall and floor near the door. It was a nightmare 😱.

Robb started swatting at the higher up ones, as he is very tall, while I ran around the outside of the house to spray the door they were coming through with bug spray. I then returned to the house where we went on a killing spree swatting anything that moved. And every time we thought we had gotten them all, more would pop up 🤬🤬! It must have taken us close to 45 minutes to kill all the ones we could find. And laughing at how ridiculous we must have looked to anyone who could see us running around swinging flyswatters like lunatics.

We finally got the infestation under control and then the clean-up began, the blood… the guts… the bodies 🤢. Did you know that ladybugs bleed orange? Yeah, neither did I 😬😬. 

Why is it so hard for bugs to understand, stay out of my house you live. Come inside all bets are off. Fair right?

So Halloween ended up being night of 1000 bugs (Ok 20-30 – I’m prone to hyperbole 🤷‍♀️ 😁). And at least 6 holdovers that have met their end today.

I’m pretty sure there’s a special place in hell waiting for me because of the great ladybug massacre of Halloween 2022 🤪.

A Little Levity at My Expense

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“Show Us Your Boobs” 

I swear that’s what I heard the other day coming out of my tv in an ad for DJ Bouncing Beats and I was like “WTF?!? That’s a child’s toy saying that 😳?” Until I realized that it was show us your moves – but now I can’t unhear “show us your boobs” every time that commercial comes on 🤦‍♀️😆😆.

Link for reference: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDXuXfK7a5s

It’s almost as bad as when I lived in Vegas and there was a commercial that advertised “the loosest sluts in town” or so I thought that’s what it said 😬.

I guess that’s what happens when you don’t pay attention during the commercial breaks 😆😆😆.

Anyone else willing to fess up to completely mishearing something that caused you to pause a moment? Anyone willing to admit any that are as bad or worse that my two admitted mishaps? 😁😁😁

Comments are open 😉.

The Gift That Keeps on Giving – Mental Health Struggles

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Well, I guess it’s a good thing my blog is not designed as a money generator because trying to create content during a minor mental health crisis is challenging at best.

I had really hoped to get back on track post trip, but once the stress of travel was off my plate, a lot of negative thoughts that I had been shoving down decided to surface along with the grief over the death of my horse (and my dog really). 

So, the last week and a half I had to spend my energy on managing my mental health and not getting mired down by the intrusive thoughts, some of which were triggered by my visit to Buffalo – the place I had met (specifically at college, which I visited) and married my ex. I think the very short trip I took down memory lane really brought up some unexpected emotions that kind of ganged up on me all at once upon my return. 

Such is the life of a person who works every day to maintain control over their emotional health. Many times, there are no battles to be had, but when your mind turns on you it takes every resource you have to beat it back. And that’s what I have been doing since my last blog – recovering from the battle.

Thankfully, the darkness started to lift last Friday and I’m back on solid ground. I even had a platonic date with my good friend Robb on Saturday – dinner and a movie. The dinner was good, the movie not so much 🤷‍♀️(Halloween Ends for those who are wondering 😁). It’s nice to feel less anxiety and more confidence. It’s also a cue to always be mindful of my emotional status to better prepare for possible bad days ahead.

Anyway, this last week was a reminder that you while good days are aplenty, the dark ones are still lurking in the background. I will always have to be vigilant with my mental health.

As always, this is just another story on the challenges that people with mental health issues may face. So even if this is not something you’ve experienced – give those of us who do grace during a crisis, at least to the extent that it doesn’t harm you to do so 😊. 

I AM SPUD

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Well, it’s been a hot minute, hasn’t it? I was planning on blogging last week but the road trip I had planned for the end of last week loomed large over me. Traveling is stressful! And stress really hampers my writing at times, so here I am asking for forgiveness from peace-ing out on blogging last week 😁.

So, let’s talk a little about my trip. I had a wedding to attend in Buffalo, NY on Saturday the 8th. I left on the South Carolina on Thursday the 6th and returned on the 9th, driving instead of flying, which sounded like a good idea at the time 😆😆😆. 

Actually, the drive was quite lovely and very scenic. And it was the first time I had road tripped in almost 4 years. Hell, it’s the first time I had left the state for “vacation” in four years 😬. I really need to get out more 😜. But driving through NC, WV, PA and a little of NY was beautiful because of the fall weather and I highly recommend the trip – just maybe take more time with it 😉.

A lot of people questioned my sanity for taking on a 740-mile trek on my own, driving straight through both ways. But I love driving trips 💜. The only challenge for me is the last hour or two hours when your soooo close, yet soooo far away at the same time. And, if truth be told, it is exhausting 🥱. Who new sitting in a car for 12 hours could be so tiring – I mean you’re just sitting?!? 😆😆 But I made there and back safe and sound, spending way less than if I had flown, rented a car and a room 💰💰💰💰 (yes, even with bundling 😉).

But I have been paying the price since I have returned. Yesterday morning, I had to roll myself to the edge of the bed and swing my legs over the side so that I could lever myself into a sitting position. Then it took a few more minutes to stand 😮. The fatigue was real y’all! And I am still feeling the effects today – SSSSIIIIGGGHHH (patented and dramatic 😁😁). Hence the I am Spud. And I will probably continue to be a 🛋🥔 for the next few days. 

As for the wedding itself, I will only say that my two favorite parts were watching my dad walk his granddaughter (my niece) down the aisle and the Bride/brother dance to the tune of Lean on Me chosen by the bride’s brother 🥰🥰.  And of course, seeing my niece and nephew, both of whom I haven’t laid eyes on in years.

That’s a taste of my little adventure. As the fog lifts from my sleepy brain, I will share a few insights I gained about myself this trip. Stay tuned….

Love and hugs, Spud

Medical Updates – the Good, Bad and Weird of it All

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The Good: For those who’ve been following along, I was having some gynecological concerns that required an ultrasound, which was performed two weeks ago. I got a copy of the test results and from what I could glean (after googling a bunch of terms 😆), everything was good. I had my follow-up with my gynecologist, and she confirmed my suspicions – no detectable issues 🍾🥂. We decided I would stick with the medication I was on, as it seems to be working, and re-evaluate at my annual appointment in December. YAY ME 🎉!

The Bad: Remember that bill I was fighting over because the doctor mis-labeled my appointment type, so my blood work wasn’t covered. Well, I lost that battle 😡. But not before the second-tier investigator forgot to inform me via their messaging system that they found me libel and it was sent to collections 😮!!! Now to some people, collections is no big deal, but when I say I have NEVER had a bill go to collections, no lie is detected (it’s the small things I take pride in 😉). Fortunately, the billing department for the medical center re-called it when I had not received any resolution notification. Yet the very next day, they tell me I owe the money! Now I’m pissed off and annoyed, so I call billing yet again and this young lady was quite helpful. She pulled the account and told me that the second-tier investigation also found be libel for the bill, but she could get me a 30% discount saving me $50. At that point, I just tagged out and paid it. Now I can wipe my hands of that place going forward.

The Weird: Back at my gynecologist office…. So, each appointment they tell me I have a $60 co-pay, which is usually reserved for specialist. Now, while gynecology is a specialty, it is also primary/essential care for woman and I thought the co-pay would be $40, except for the ultrasound situation, which also had a  $66 balance on top of the $60 co-pay (jeez billing turnaround time has gotten really efficient 😬). And when I got my EOB from the first of the three appointments, it says co-pay $40. I bring this up to the office at my appointment (3 of 3) yesterday and they said insurance was listing my co-pay at $60 and to call billing (dear god not billing again😱). I get home and pull up my account with that doctor’s office to check the balance and find that they applied $20 from my appointment number one to the ultrasound balance, so it was $20 less. And since I probably overpaid for yesterday’s appointment, I’m hoping it will also be applied to the balance 🤞. But that is a problem for another day, probably tomorrow 🙄. Seriously, though these “corporate” hospital systems are going to be the death of me 😵 🤪.

As always, I share because if I can’t laugh at the ridiculousness in my life and let you all laugh along with me, what can we laugh about 😁?

The Sun Is Rising

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Happy Tuesday My Lovelies! I’m trying to get back to some semblance of normalcy after working through my grief. And while the waves aren’t quite as strong as before, they’re still hanging on a bit. At least it’s more manageable than last week 😊.

Thank you for all of your kind words and thoughts of support. It’s not easy to lose a loved one, whether it be human, or animal and I appreciate that no one thought my grief wasn’t valid just because it she was my horse. 

But I have to tell you, I have grieved too much in the past four years 😢. I’ve grieved the loss of my marriage, two horses, my dog and a house I had to sell that I loved and designed. And I have grieved for friends and family that have lost loved ones as well. It’s a wonder I get out of bed some days. It’s an even bigger wonder that my depression hasn’t returned. It knocks on the door every so often, but I work at keeping it at bay (thank you CBD gummies).

However, today is a new day and it is beautiful day (bonus – low humidity). I am ready to tackle the next obstacle life decides to throw at me. And it’s time for me to move on from most of my past grief and figure out my next steps. To that end, I will be starting a short series of posts wherein each week (possible 2 a week) I will read a chapter in my therapist’s book, do the exercises, and post my thoughts/reactions here. A dive into my psyche if you will, enter at your own risk 😳😆.

And, as always, I will keep you, My Lovelies, in the loop as I work out what I’m doing with my life 😊.

You’re gonna make it
You’re gonna make it
The night can only last for so long

Whatever you’re facing
If your heart is breaking
There’s a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising (the sun is rising)
The sun is rising (the sun is rising)

Britt Nicole’s The Sun Is Rising chorus

Heartbroken 💔

I will miss you forever 😪

I can’t believe I am making this type of post twice, less than a year apart 😔.

Let me first say, I have loved all of my animals equally and with all of my heart. But for two of my babies – my dog Storm, who passed years ago, and my horse Sabre – I knew in my soul those two were meant to be mine. It was love at first sight with both of them. Those two had my heart in a way I cannot express.

And this past weekend, I said goodbye to a part of my heart because I had to have my beautiful Sabre put to sleep 💔💔💔💔💔💔.

The details aren’t important. It was a decision made with the help of her vet, who has taken such good care for her these past 9 years. I just thought I had more time with her 😢.

I was told she transitioned peacefully. No, I wasn’t present, my vet recommended that I stay away and after reading about the ways an owner could be traumatized, I agreed to let her and my horse border handle it. Plus witnessing the death of two pets in one year is a lot.

I said my goodbyes the day before, taking our final pictures. She was a beauty 😍.

So, this may be the only post this week because it’s been hard to keep the waves of grief at bay.

Even though it was the right decision, making that decision that sucks no matter how you slice it.

RIP Sabre 2004-2022